F(UCK)ear is stupid, and so am I(T)

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For a moment, it exists / And then it disappears all over again / I was so used to chasing my own tail but now I stay still / I watch, by her side, wondering what’s going on in her head / Even with the stones of death piling up in her chest, not a whisper of the wind blows under the door / Does she spare us the burden of knowing the truth / Or is she confused, not daring to move / I squeeze onto her bed any chance I get / With her, I’m a dog and all I can ask for are pets / The language of silence wets my mouth with regret / Until I start drooling, I cannot forget / Any reaction, any reaction at all / Other than pain or sadness, even anger I’d accept / Scream, mother, scream / I’ve seen monks show more emotion than you / I resent your depression, I can’t fight off yours too / I’ll wait and I’ll wait / I’ll move countries / I won’t stop but I’ll stare / I can’t spare you the burden of having a daughter that cares

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There’s a man who’s in love with you / I met him for lunch / He’s tall and he’s smart / But he’s quite mistaken about you / You’re a fantasy, a dream / It was annoying for me to see / I listened to him glisten then I told him you’re still unwell / Wait, boy, wait / Love your own wife, first, I swear / I’m 26 / No matter how wise / You shared a little too much for a man with white hair / The German dog man who moved away / I liked him much better / His gaze was clear and in the garage you both dared / To share recent secrets with no future to bear / You don’t know much about romance / I don’t even think that you care / I wish I could show you / I only hope you’re still here